This is What My Life Amounts Too

So here I am, typing up someone elses history report up for five bucks. Not only am I typing up someone elses report, but its even better than the one I wrote for myself. Unbelievable, not to mention the fact that I have a colossal amount of my own homework to do. I can't believe that being sick after a week, (and still not completely recovered) I still have all of this! It is beyone demoralizing, it's down right depressing. I don't know if I'm going to get out of this hole before semester exams. It's terrible. I stayed up until five in the morning yesterday doing not one, but two projects that were supposed to be due but that I couldn't complete through my coughing, sneezing, and cold medicine induced drowsiness. When I got to class today both teachers gave an extension. I almost lost it...I seriously almost screamed and yelled and tore my project to pieces. I stayed up all night for nothing. On the bright side of disastrous...I can now make sure that I didn't make any stupid mistakes due to sleep deprivation. I'm just glad I have the weekend to catch up and study. Perhaps, I'll even have some time to write once I'm done.

Just Like Candy

So here I am, another night of the flu, with waaaayyy too much that I still have left to do. Over the last week and a half, I have bought and consumed enough cold and flu medicine to make most people think I have a meth lab in my basement. As if it's not bad enough that I even have the flu, I have it during Thanksgiving Break...go figure. I should be stuffing myself and enjoying time off school. No, of course not, I get to down apple flavored TheraFlu instead of real apple cider. I also get to almost choke to death on the turkey because not only is my throat sore and dry, the turkey is dry too.

Just because I don't have to go to school doesn't mean I don't have homework, so I get to try to do my History, English, and Algebra through the sleepy haze of cold medicine. For once, I did not procrasitnate, I simply could not concentrate. I have a pile of tissues next to me like crazy and my sinuses are still backed up, and staring at the computer screen makes my headache about twenty million times worse.

As if all of this is not bad enough, let's add my performance tomorrow into the equation. So here was the equation before; sore throat+ homework+headache=really lousy Thanksgiving Break and miserable first day back at school. New Equation!!! sore throat + headache + homework+singing performance= Train Wreck, absolute fucking Train Wreck. Basically what everything amounts to, is me sitting here dreading tomorrow and popping cough drops like a four-year-old who thinks she's discovered candy...really gross tasting candy...where all you can taste is the medicine, that makes your breath smell rank.

A Random Realization

There have been many times in my life I have caught myself thinking about the most random of things. One such time would include earlier today when I realized that I have a hopeless obsession with balance. I want everything in its’ place, I want time for everything, something to tell everyone I am close to. I don’t put much store in the whole astrology nonsense, but that in truth is a very Libra like quality, and the want for balance truly does rule my life. However, due to the hopeless amount of day dreaming I do, and my jam-packed schedule, I don’t have the time I need to get the balance that I so desperately long for. Even right now, as I’m typing, I should be doing laundry. I can’t do laundry however, because I am compelled to write down my realization before I have the chance to forget it, after all perhaps if I can fully come to grips with my goal, and can achieve it. Ha, probably not, but it’s worth a try